[EM]: Topic 8 - Who You Can't Live Without
Aug. 8th, 2006 06:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
standardblackTruthfully? I think I’d have to say Kate…and not for the reason probably everyone’s thinking, either. Yes, Hurley and Sawer, I’m talking to you. Something as simple and uncomplicated as romance would be good to have in my life, but it’s not like that, and it’s not what I’m talking about here.
A lot’s happened since we got stranded…and she’s been with me through all of it. I’ve never been very good at letting things go…she makes me. When I don’t sleep, she forces me to bed…when I haven’t eaten in more than a day, she suddenly appears to give me grief and toss a mango or two in my direction. She’s the voice of reason and logic when mine’s gone silent, and Boone’s death is only one example of that.
I’d given Boone my own blood…I still don’t know how much, could’ve been a couple pints, maybe more. I hadn’t slept in nearly a day, and had no food or water in me.
She drugged me…a fact I’ve pretty much forgiven her for, being that she probably saved my life and all.
It was just some sleeping pills crushed up in some orange juice, but it was what I needed. Those few hours of sleep got my adrenaline levels down, which let me rest on my own later…after the situation with Shannon was taken care of. The bottom line is that she was there for me…she basically took care of me when I wouldn’t, when I *couldn’t* take care of myself.
The funny thing about it, too, is that she acts so selfishly at times. I know Kate…I know what she is, who she is, even if no one else does. There are so many reasons why she shouldn’t do the things she does, and not simply because of the facts I know about her.
Even if she doesn’t know it…I know Kate’s afraid to connect, to get close to people.
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And maybe that’s why nothing has *really* happened between us yet. I know what’s there…what I feel, what I want, but I know in my heart that acting on it will drive her away.
I see her…and I like what I see.
I also want her…however I can get her, and if that means keeping this distance between us…I can do that. It’s hell…but if I can’t *hold* her close, I can *keep* her close.
I’d rather have her by my side than have her in my bed, if the only other option is not having her at all.
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Muse: Jack Sheppard
Fandom: LOST
Words: 421
A lot’s happened since we got stranded…and she’s been with me through all of it. I’ve never been very good at letting things go…she makes me. When I don’t sleep, she forces me to bed…when I haven’t eaten in more than a day, she suddenly appears to give me grief and toss a mango or two in my direction. She’s the voice of reason and logic when mine’s gone silent, and Boone’s death is only one example of that.
I’d given Boone my own blood…I still don’t know how much, could’ve been a couple pints, maybe more. I hadn’t slept in nearly a day, and had no food or water in me.
She drugged me…a fact I’ve pretty much forgiven her for, being that she probably saved my life and all.
It was just some sleeping pills crushed up in some orange juice, but it was what I needed. Those few hours of sleep got my adrenaline levels down, which let me rest on my own later…after the situation with Shannon was taken care of. The bottom line is that she was there for me…she basically took care of me when I wouldn’t, when I *couldn’t* take care of myself.
The funny thing about it, too, is that she acts so selfishly at times. I know Kate…I know what she is, who she is, even if no one else does. There are so many reasons why she shouldn’t do the things she does, and not simply because of the facts I know about her.
Even if she doesn’t know it…I know Kate’s afraid to connect, to get close to people.
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And maybe that’s why nothing has *really* happened between us yet. I know what’s there…what I feel, what I want, but I know in my heart that acting on it will drive her away.
I see her…and I like what I see.
I also want her…however I can get her, and if that means keeping this distance between us…I can do that. It’s hell…but if I can’t *hold* her close, I can *keep* her close.
I’d rather have her by my side than have her in my bed, if the only other option is not having her at all.
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Muse: Jack Sheppard
Fandom: LOST
Words: 421
